UuFooooOoO~

well, i just finished my ENG 1030 paper a couple of hours ago.


It was tough. No dont get me wrong. Its tough, and based on the standard of the past year papers (I did ALL PAST YEARS from year 01 to 06 okay), it was tough.

I managed to do 5 out of 8 questions. the 3 that i didnt know how to do, confirm kaput.the 5 that i did, i made a couple of mistakes here and there. I know my status very well, unlike Dynamics last sem where i came out of the hall not knowing wtf i wrote in the paper. Im there, very near the failing mark. Slightly above it, but still very near and very risky. I need some magic.

Ive worked very hard for this sub. Really. The fact that im weakest at this sub made me push myself further and i have never studied this hard in my life for one subject. I attempted hundred of questions and past years, hoping to pass. Infact, a few days ago i was feelin pretty confident for the exam beacuse i was able to solve past years. FYI i got 90/100 for the 06 paper. So when i say the paper today was tough, its not because i had not study enough or shit like that.ARGH

Well, i came home feeling pretty shitty. Yea i know i tried my best and even my parents told me its okay but this is the first time in my live im facing with failure even after i tried my best. Ok maybe dynamics was my first but i seriously think i put in much more effort into 1030.

FOOH

decided to do some funny color-personality test, linked from kavi

the results:

Name: Joe the great
Date: 11/2/2007
Colorgenics Number: 15760342


You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.


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OMG THIS STUPID TEST IS SO TRUE. yeah to those who still dont understand how im feeeling now (prolly due to my shitty writing skills), this is EXACTLY how im feeling. woah.


ok time to go play games before i go bonkus.

love you all. =) will update with some less 1030-ish posts tmr