Howdy.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Im still alive. and kicking
Just got done with my finals. Wasnt smooth but i'l just hope for the best.
Things have been pretty rough for me this year. Bloody year of the Ox hasnt been too nice with me so far. Things just havent been going smoothly. Obstacles at every fuckin corner. Been trying so hard since the start of the year but failed big time when it came to stuff that matter.
One blow after another and im still standing strong. Wonder how long can i go on like this. Putting on a smile when im with people; having sleepless nights when im alone - this is becoming my life.
Rant. The last thing i want is to be labeled a bloody 'Emo' but blogspot and msn are pretty handy at times. Sometimes typing all the shit into a data server gives more comfort than talking to a living human. Dont ask me why. Probably because ive ranted so much to my closest pals and theyre probably sick of my never ending sad stories. Who likes sad stories anyway?
Seven months. Seven god damn months have passed and i thought i was ready to move on. Bloody hell i was so wrong. People say the first cut is the deepest. I say the first cut fucking kills you. My refusal to deal with reality, or perhaps my inability to let things go, has become a serious problem for the other party. Heck i know its unfair. ive been trying. and i still am.
Memories kill.
A couple of years ago one of my good friends was having some relationship problems. I gave some smart-alec advice. Its funny when the very same advice comes back to you, and you actually find it ridiculous.
So many questions. No answers. Probably never going to get them.
Taking life one step at a time. A very, very small step at a time. Been tumbling so much even a little step feels like a giant leap nowadays.
Sometimes i still wonder- why cant circumstances be a little less cruel? Yeah i might sound like a pussy but sometimes i wish things were a little easier. It really sucks when youre trying so hard to reach for something and you fail to do so simply because Circumstances forbid you to. Giving in to circumstances is something ive always found very hard to do.
I'd really really like to believe in serendipity. Does it even exist
The hardest thing in the world is to watch somebody dear from afar. To draw lines and contain feelings so that it doesnt spill and make a big mess of the person's life.
I notice ive posted nothing but thrash since december last year. Hopefully i'l get my blogging interest back. THen maybe you guys will get to see photos. hah.
Im so, so tired.
Just got done with my finals. Wasnt smooth but i'l just hope for the best.
Things have been pretty rough for me this year. Bloody year of the Ox hasnt been too nice with me so far. Things just havent been going smoothly. Obstacles at every fuckin corner. Been trying so hard since the start of the year but failed big time when it came to stuff that matter.
One blow after another and im still standing strong. Wonder how long can i go on like this. Putting on a smile when im with people; having sleepless nights when im alone - this is becoming my life.
Rant. The last thing i want is to be labeled a bloody 'Emo' but blogspot and msn are pretty handy at times. Sometimes typing all the shit into a data server gives more comfort than talking to a living human. Dont ask me why. Probably because ive ranted so much to my closest pals and theyre probably sick of my never ending sad stories. Who likes sad stories anyway?
Seven months. Seven god damn months have passed and i thought i was ready to move on. Bloody hell i was so wrong. People say the first cut is the deepest. I say the first cut fucking kills you. My refusal to deal with reality, or perhaps my inability to let things go, has become a serious problem for the other party. Heck i know its unfair. ive been trying. and i still am.
Memories kill.
A couple of years ago one of my good friends was having some relationship problems. I gave some smart-alec advice. Its funny when the very same advice comes back to you, and you actually find it ridiculous.
So many questions. No answers. Probably never going to get them.
Taking life one step at a time. A very, very small step at a time. Been tumbling so much even a little step feels like a giant leap nowadays.
Sometimes i still wonder- why cant circumstances be a little less cruel? Yeah i might sound like a pussy but sometimes i wish things were a little easier. It really sucks when youre trying so hard to reach for something and you fail to do so simply because Circumstances forbid you to. Giving in to circumstances is something ive always found very hard to do.
I'd really really like to believe in serendipity. Does it even exist
The hardest thing in the world is to watch somebody dear from afar. To draw lines and contain feelings so that it doesnt spill and make a big mess of the person's life.
I notice ive posted nothing but thrash since december last year. Hopefully i'l get my blogging interest back. THen maybe you guys will get to see photos. hah.
Im so, so tired.
The night before Thermo
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
'Twas the night before thermo, when all through the class,
Not a student was sleeping, all afraid they wouldn't pass.
The p-sets were placed on the table with care
In hopes that the answers soon would be there.
Raymundo was nestled all snug in his bed,
With no thermodynamics worries in his head,
And Mrs. Carter in her 'kerchief, and Carter in his cap,
Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,
When in my head there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my desk to figure out the matter
When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a phase diagram -- it was all so clear
With a triple point and even all of the phases,
I knew in a moment I must count my graces.
More rapid than eagles my answers they came,
And I whistled and shouted and called them by name;
"Now D, now f, now 2 and C!
On a graph, on axes with P and T!
On to the top of the paper, to the top of the wall,
Now diagram, diagram, diagram all!"
So on the paper, the answers they flew,
With the number of components, and phases too.
And then in a twinkling, I knew the degrees of freedom,
It was so easy, I thought only I could be so horribly dumb,
For in my head, I remembered the key;
that D plus f equals 2 plus c.
With that, I finished my answer, excited I'd gotten it right
And heard Carter exclaim, "Remember the Gibb's Phase Rule, and to all a good night!"
- An MIT Professor and his students
Not a student was sleeping, all afraid they wouldn't pass.
The p-sets were placed on the table with care
In hopes that the answers soon would be there.
Raymundo was nestled all snug in his bed,
With no thermodynamics worries in his head,
And Mrs. Carter in her 'kerchief, and Carter in his cap,
Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,
When in my head there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my desk to figure out the matter
When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a phase diagram -- it was all so clear
With a triple point and even all of the phases,
I knew in a moment I must count my graces.
More rapid than eagles my answers they came,
And I whistled and shouted and called them by name;
"Now D, now f, now 2 and C!
On a graph, on axes with P and T!
On to the top of the paper, to the top of the wall,
Now diagram, diagram, diagram all!"
So on the paper, the answers they flew,
With the number of components, and phases too.
And then in a twinkling, I knew the degrees of freedom,
It was so easy, I thought only I could be so horribly dumb,
For in my head, I remembered the key;
that D plus f equals 2 plus c.
With that, I finished my answer, excited I'd gotten it right
And heard Carter exclaim, "Remember the Gibb's Phase Rule, and to all a good night!"
- An MIT Professor and his students
Untitled.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
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Saturday, May 16, 2009
this is childish but
for once
i just want to run away from it all
Does God even answer prayers
Where is God when i need Him the most.
If there even is one.
for once
i just want to run away from it all
Does God even answer prayers
Where is God when i need Him the most.
If there even is one.
Support Earth Hour!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
SUPPORT EARTH HOUR!
Earth Hour is an international event organised by the WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature/World Wildlife Fund), and held on the last Saturday of March each year, which asks households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change.
You can make a difference:
Date: 28th of March, 2009
Time: 8.30 to 9.30 pm
LIGHTS OFFF!
I will be participating in this event. In fact, im gonna do more. I'l stop blogging for one month (in addition to the couple-of-months break before this). Wahahaha. Less blogging = computer gets turned on less = readers spend less time reading my blog (see im helping you save energy as well wtf) = MORE ENERGY SAVED= ENVIRONMENTAL WIN!
^@#$%^@#
Sunday, March 1, 2009
What better way to start the day
than to go out to your lawn
and step on a super stinky, super yucky, super dirty, freshly made GIGANTIC pile of
dog poo.
SHIT!
than to go out to your lawn
and step on a super stinky, super yucky, super dirty, freshly made GIGANTIC pile of
dog poo.
SHIT!
The heart.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Trust your heart.
Isnt that what people always tell you to do? To trust your heart and instincts because they'll guide you to do what you really want to do?
Trust your heart.
Heart and mind are often at conflict with each other. Mind tends to take things logically while the heart tends to feel things through. Of course if you trust your heart 100% youre going to end up doing stupid things like smoking weed and getting pregnant at 15 just because you FELT like it. On the other hand, what's life if you trust your mind 100% and try to execute everything to an absolute perfection, forgetting the feelings and the joy that comes when you try something tough but actually manage to work it out?. Its like picking a course that has good employment prospects but one that you have zero interest in. and you spend the rest of your life trying to convince yourself that its a right choice because life's never perfect and the most brutal decisions are always the best.
Trust your heart.
I say a safe bet would be to let your mind control 90% of the stuff you do, but let your heart decide on the remaining 10%. The most important of decisions. The ones that would change your life forever. The ones that are risky, but would give you endless pleasure and happiness if you pull through.
Trust your heart.
How would you know if the feelings that youre feeling are true? Well, for me, if youre not being subjected to influence and there is no outside interference and your heart tells you to go to A... it should be true(provided it is not physically or ethically wrong). Afterall, the french author Francois de La Rochefoucauld once said "If there be a love pure and free from the admixture of our other passions, it is that which lies hidden in the bottom of our heart, and which we know not ourselves. "
Trust your heart.
Sometimes, the logic that seems right doesnt necessarily end up being right. Especially in complicated matters where your logic is made based on present circumstances., the stuff that you can see and feel at the present moment. I believe the heart has a way of subconciously analyzing past and present details, details so tiny that youre unable to put on paper when youre trying to weigh the pros and cons, and make a decision that in some cases, in the long run, can be right-er than the logical decision. I guess thats what they mean by the 'instincts' and 'chemistry' and 'i just feel like it'-s you have when youre with a special person.
Trust your heart.
Have you ever been in a situation where you've logically decided on something, but somehow it just doesnt feel right? And the minute youre not conciously putting effort into reinforcing your decision you appear in a place that the so called logical decision has forbidden you to go? and you cant seem to explain why your heart yearns for that place? IMO this is the kind of situation that warrants a thorough soul search, for a heart-made decision. ( or in other words the 10% of decisions that you cant make using logic)
Trust your heart.
What the heart knows today the head will understand tomorrow. - James Stephens
Isnt that what people always tell you to do? To trust your heart and instincts because they'll guide you to do what you really want to do?
Trust your heart.
Heart and mind are often at conflict with each other. Mind tends to take things logically while the heart tends to feel things through. Of course if you trust your heart 100% youre going to end up doing stupid things like smoking weed and getting pregnant at 15 just because you FELT like it. On the other hand, what's life if you trust your mind 100% and try to execute everything to an absolute perfection, forgetting the feelings and the joy that comes when you try something tough but actually manage to work it out?. Its like picking a course that has good employment prospects but one that you have zero interest in. and you spend the rest of your life trying to convince yourself that its a right choice because life's never perfect and the most brutal decisions are always the best.
Trust your heart.
I say a safe bet would be to let your mind control 90% of the stuff you do, but let your heart decide on the remaining 10%. The most important of decisions. The ones that would change your life forever. The ones that are risky, but would give you endless pleasure and happiness if you pull through.
Trust your heart.
How would you know if the feelings that youre feeling are true? Well, for me, if youre not being subjected to influence and there is no outside interference and your heart tells you to go to A... it should be true(provided it is not physically or ethically wrong). Afterall, the french author Francois de La Rochefoucauld once said "If there be a love pure and free from the admixture of our other passions, it is that which lies hidden in the bottom of our heart, and which we know not ourselves. "
Trust your heart.
Sometimes, the logic that seems right doesnt necessarily end up being right. Especially in complicated matters where your logic is made based on present circumstances., the stuff that you can see and feel at the present moment. I believe the heart has a way of subconciously analyzing past and present details, details so tiny that youre unable to put on paper when youre trying to weigh the pros and cons, and make a decision that in some cases, in the long run, can be right-er than the logical decision. I guess thats what they mean by the 'instincts' and 'chemistry' and 'i just feel like it'-s you have when youre with a special person.
Trust your heart.
Have you ever been in a situation where you've logically decided on something, but somehow it just doesnt feel right? And the minute youre not conciously putting effort into reinforcing your decision you appear in a place that the so called logical decision has forbidden you to go? and you cant seem to explain why your heart yearns for that place? IMO this is the kind of situation that warrants a thorough soul search, for a heart-made decision. ( or in other words the 10% of decisions that you cant make using logic)
Trust your heart.
What the heart knows today the head will understand tomorrow. - James Stephens
