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I have a simple philosophy: Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. Scratch where it itches.

The reason.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

and the reason is you.
posted by Joe, 8:03 PM | link | 2 comments |


Friday, December 4, 2009

lol ive almost forgotten my password to my blogger dashboard.

well well. this place seems so foreign now. Havent been here in a while.

Time for some random words. My mind is in a clutter.

I am sorry.

I now know what a jerk ive been.

Sleepless nights again. fuck

A chance? I have finally realized my mistake. Late i know, but i seriously hope its not too late.

I really really hate how all of this is going- I know exactly what i need to do, and i know i will definitely be able to do it, but again .. i need a chance.

Have you ever been in a situation where you see a bus coming, but before you could reach the bus station, the bus leaves? I really really hope the bus driver feels my sincerity and stops for me. This is one bus that i must catch.



I'l do better. I promise.
posted by Joe, 12:07 AM | link | 2 comments |


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Im still alive. and kicking

Just got done with my finals. Wasnt smooth but i'l just hope for the best.

Things have been pretty rough for me this year. Bloody year of the Ox hasnt been too nice with me so far. Things just havent been going smoothly. Obstacles at every fuckin corner. Been trying so hard since the start of the year but failed big time when it came to stuff that matter.

One blow after another and im still standing strong. Wonder how long can i go on like this. Putting on a smile when im with people; having sleepless nights when im alone - this is becoming my life.

Rant. The last thing i want is to be labeled a bloody 'Emo' but blogspot and msn are pretty handy at times. Sometimes typing all the shit into a data server gives more comfort than talking to a living human. Dont ask me why. Probably because ive ranted so much to my closest pals and theyre probably sick of my never ending sad stories. Who likes sad stories anyway?

Seven months. Seven god damn months have passed and i thought i was ready to move on. Bloody hell i was so wrong. People say the first cut is the deepest. I say the first cut fucking kills you. My refusal to deal with reality, or perhaps my inability to let things go, has become a serious problem for the other party. Heck i know its unfair. ive been trying. and i still am.

Memories kill.

A couple of years ago one of my good friends was having some relationship problems. I gave some smart-alec advice. Its funny when the very same advice comes back to you, and you actually find it ridiculous.

So many questions. No answers. Probably never going to get them.

Taking life one step at a time. A very, very small step at a time. Been tumbling so much even a little step feels like a giant leap nowadays.

Sometimes i still wonder- why cant circumstances be a little less cruel? Yeah i might sound like a pussy but sometimes i wish things were a little easier. It really sucks when youre trying so hard to reach for something and you fail to do so simply because Circumstances forbid you to. Giving in to circumstances is something ive always found very hard to do.

I'd really really like to believe in serendipity. Does it even exist

The hardest thing in the world is to watch somebody dear from afar. To draw lines and contain feelings so that it doesnt spill and make a big mess of the person's life.

I notice ive posted nothing but thrash since december last year. Hopefully i'l get my blogging interest back. THen maybe you guys will get to see photos. hah.

Im so, so tired.
posted by Joe, 1:16 AM | link | 1 comments |

The night before Thermo

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

'Twas the night before thermo, when all through the class,
Not a student was sleeping, all afraid they wouldn't pass.
The p-sets were placed on the table with care
In hopes that the answers soon would be there.
Raymundo was nestled all snug in his bed,
With no thermodynamics worries in his head,
And Mrs. Carter in her 'kerchief, and Carter in his cap,
Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,
When in my head there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my desk to figure out the matter
When what to my wondering eyes should appear,
But a phase diagram -- it was all so clear
With a triple point and even all of the phases,
I knew in a moment I must count my graces.
More rapid than eagles my answers they came,
And I whistled and shouted and called them by name;
"Now D, now f, now 2 and C!
On a graph, on axes with P and T!
On to the top of the paper, to the top of the wall,
Now diagram, diagram, diagram all!"
So on the paper, the answers they flew,
With the number of components, and phases too.
And then in a twinkling, I knew the degrees of freedom,
It was so easy, I thought only I could be so horribly dumb,
For in my head, I remembered the key;
that D plus f equals 2 plus c.
With that, I finished my answer, excited I'd gotten it right
And heard Carter exclaim, "Remember the Gibb's Phase Rule, and to all a good night!"

- An MIT Professor and his students
posted by Joe, 10:25 AM | link | 1 comments |


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

this is childish but

for once

i just want to run away from it all

Does God even answer prayers

Where is God when i need Him the most.

If there even is one.

posted by Joe, 12:48 AM | link | 0 comments |

Support Earth Hour!

Saturday, March 28, 2009


Earth Hour is an international event organised by the WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature/World Wildlife Fund), and held on the last Saturday of March each year, which asks households and businesses to turn off their non-essential lights and electrical appliances for one hour to raise awareness towards the need to take action on climate change.

You can make a difference:

Date: 28th of March, 2009
Time: 8.30 to 9.30 pm

I will be participating in this event. In fact, im gonna do more. I'l stop blogging for one month (in addition to the couple-of-months break before this). Wahahaha. Less blogging = computer gets turned on less = readers spend less time reading my blog (see im helping you save energy as well wtf) = MORE ENERGY SAVED= ENVIRONMENTAL WIN!
posted by Joe, 4:33 PM | link | 0 comments |